this sweet insanity

jacked my friends.

2009-02-20T18:53:00.001-08:00

as much as I complain that my life can be as boring as the migration of birds down south, I do kind of have an awesome life. Yes people i'm bragging because i dont have alot of opportunities to brag about my coolness. But this is my blog, so technically I could go on for days.

ayayaye. im tired

night xo

weeeeeeee eeeee

2009-02-15T17:11:00.000-08:00

counting down the days till april 14th.

The Fray concert baby !

clean my filthed mcdonald soul

2009-02-12T15:27:00.000-08:00

a bubble bath sounds just so incredibly perfect.

congratulations..

2009-02-11T18:57:00.000-08:00

..on spending the 17th valentines of your existence single.. for the 17th time.
Im a champ. Love hates me. yay.

I might just eat chocolate until my sugar goes way to high and my hearts burst out of my chest.
meh, positive side is atleast i wont die hungry.

gosh, im such a genius! make that a loveless genius

rawr.

2009-02-11T14:05:00.001-08:00

pg 18

2009-02-11T14:00:00.000-08:00

screwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww you.

i'm in a pissy mood and only Mcdees would be able to cure the situation.

i hate this part..

2009-02-09T18:47:00.000-08:00

..the one where you come back from an awesome weekend and you realise how depressing your life actually is. the part where every freaking song makes you think of that one place where you feel like you belong, where you heart is at even thaugh you've been there as many times as the numbers of fingers you have. The lame part where your heart is screaming to run away to that heaven of yours, for the sake of your happiness but your head hushes that the past and reality will eventually catch up to you.

I miss Boston.. so fucking bad

boy oh boy..

2009-02-05T16:10:00.000-08:00

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard.

Happiness was never mine to hold.

Careful child, light the fuse and get away.

Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks.

definitly

2009-01-31T08:51:00.000-08:00

i'm 17 baby. one year and legit

17 in Boston

2009-01-29T16:56:00.000-08:00

Like i have mentioned in my first blog and well, my blog is kind of named that way, my life yes can be awesome. As a matter a fact I am turning 17 tomorow. But that isn't what I came here to tell you guys. My life , on the other side, can be fucking lame. That is why I haven't written on this blog for quite a while and I mean the lack of inspiration didn't help, oh and school, oh and the boy, oh and ya the plans I am working on that consist of finding what I am going to do with the rest of my life a.k.a once im done high school. And i do apologize to the 2, maybe 3 bloggers who read my blog.

wow, I do talk alot.

Anyways, i'm going to Boston, not this weekend, but the one after. Pretty stoke I might say. Prom dress shopping, college hockey games, college hockey boys. woops no. Yes. maybe, ok half joking. Maybe less than half. WTV. And ou ou ouu, nice little lunch on Newbury street, also known as Heaven on earth. All of this with the beautiful company of my brother's overly gorgeous spanish girlfriend and maybe,hopefuly, my friend Joelle.

AND AND AND , dam dam dam.
MEHIICOOO ME AMIGOS. march 3th to march 10th. Oh sun, Oh tan, Oh free pina coladas, Oh sweet oh american boys. It's going to be my first time in Mexico and I already love it. I'm in need of a few bikinis thaugh. Maybe 2. maybe 3. or maybe im just exagerating. I have the intendancy of doing that often. ill try to work on that. or no. well, not when it comes to clothes.

Perhaps i shall shut up and keep some blaberring for a nother blog? Maybe tomorrow, after I come back from school freshly just turned 17 and brag about the amazing cupcakes my girls baked me. Yeah sorry peaches, I know you girls to well and the fact that Michelle screamed how excited she was to bake them when I was two rows of desk in front of her, kind of killed the surprise.

Okay, okay.
Bye babycakesssss.

naive

2008-12-01T19:09:00.000-08:00

I don't know how to express my anger towards you. I don't know how to tell you how much i'm upset and how much I miss you. I fell for you when we were around eachother, but now i'm falling deeper that were not. Every glimpse I get of you, every rare chance I get to hold you, is making it worse. I honeslty don't know what happened, don't know what I did or didn't do for it to turn out like this. I need you to tell me it's over, I need to hear it from your mouth, because I feel so stupid waiting for you right now. When probably, you moved on long ago.

That afternoon, you told me it wasn't passionate love and fine, I agreed. But I couldn't help myself to want more of that amazing smile, and now here I am, alone in this pathetic love story, dwelling on you.
The worst part of it, it's that you know. You know I want you.

It's pissing me off that it had to end this way. I want to be able to hold you and talk to you like I used to.

I miss you

amen

2008-12-01T17:46:00.000-08:00

"You Found Me is a tough song for me. Its about the disappointment, the heart ache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you're let down, sometimes you're the one who lets someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and I'm still right in the thick of it. There's some difficult circumstances my family and friends have been going through over the past year or so and can be overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest."

- Isaac, The Fray

one day I will be on that page..

2008-11-24T18:53:00.001-08:00

http://www.marcjacobs.com/#folder=/worldofmarcjacobs/employeesofthemoment

breakaway

2008-11-23T17:11:00.000-08:00

This world we live in is flipping huge. Why should I stay here, in my little lost corner of Canada ? I wanna leave, I wanna live. Live the life everyone should live. Enjoy a sunset in Greece, the soft waters of Fidji, the clostrophobic feeling of walking around in Tokyo, munch on some amazing italian pasta in Rome. I wanna see it all.

This weekend I was in Maine at my brother's house. Typical college house. But i just love it. I felt so free, so independant. High School is pissing me off, in no way is it letting me do what i love. Tomorrow, i'll learn stuff that I will forget by the time I get home.

SCREW IT. I wanna grow up.
I know , I should be enjoying these moments, its the best days of my life, blablabla. I mean I love my friends here and all, but nothing is holding me back from leaving. I can't wait until August, oh god I can't wait.

I wanna do my own little grocery in an organic store, I want to go get a coffee before work in the morning. I want to be able to have a messy appartment, eat chinese take-out 5 times a week, shop in vintage boutiques, work in the fashion industry. Have my friends over for some wine. I want a cheap ass appartment decorated with urban outfitters house stuff, I want to live in NYC, I want to have a man with messy hair who will wake me up with a kiss.

Dear Diary, I want my life.

everything comes to an end

2008-11-17T17:42:00.000-08:00

So I was in the bus coming home from school, and like every other day, my stupid Ipod goes out of battery. So I ask one of my friend if I could borrow an earphone from hers. The song Goodbye from Miley Cyrus was playing. Yes yes, i hear you, Ew Miley Cyrus! But honestly, the song is pretty good. Anyways my point is, I flipping hate goodbyes. I think it's the worst feeling and situation someone can go threw... And then something hit me. I'm graduatin high school this year. I mean, yes, okay, I already knew that. But that very minute, I realized, wow, this is it. Finito, Dunzo l'amigos. June 22th, 2009 will be my last high school day... overwhelming much?

Why do goodbyes even exist? Why can't we just never leave someone or something ? Be forever, you know. I guess everything does happen for a reason..

L. Mayday, xo
p.s.: Did you guys see the new See by Chloé shoe collection

hitting the stores in December? O-M-G! I'm so getting

a pair of those dark blue or red moccasin-style high tops.

hormonal teachers who think they're god..

2008-11-17T04:14:00.000-08:00

I really dont feel like going to school...

prince charming

2008-11-16T14:44:00.000-08:00

Ever wonder what your prince charming or delightful princess looks like?

You know the one we so call soulmate.. Well here are a few criterias i'm looking forward to see when my own version of Chace Crawford will knock at my Upper East Side penthouse or my one and a half appartement in the Bronx.... depending on how much life loves me

( Before you start complaining about how small the writting is, I suggest you click on the imagine)

L. Mayday, xo

Carolina in my mind

2008-11-15T15:30:00.000-08:00

Hi to all of you lovely readers.

I'm a first timer to this blog phenomenon. Yes, I might be a virgin to this site, but I ain't no starter to life. This is why I decided to share my thoughts, laughs and adventures with all you curious strangers. You could say some kind of diary. My life is , of course, sometimes rather boring.
But isn't that the whole beauty of it?

This sweet insanity is about to begin...
I'll keep you posted.
L. Mayday , xo

p.s. : Oh, how do I miss summertime!